Relationships

Taken from my forum site.

I'm going to be 99 years old before I meet someone. Not only am I a bigger girl (aka: A real woman), but I'm loud, rude, abrasive, and kind bitchy. My first line of defense is, well, defense. I'm mean and sarcastic and I can't help it.

I liked this guy so much in HS and I really thought I loved him. I tried every thing. But, in the end, he ended up dating this girl who was, let's say, less than clean and pretty. What, just cause I'm fat, now I'm fucking ugly!?

I don't make friends easily, if at all, and even Melissa hated me at first. I'm fucked. I screw everything up with people. I make "friends" and then I lose them because I finally relax enough to be myself.

I also gravitate to terrible people. I always find the psychos and the abusers and befriend them. One girl I was friends with in HS upset me so much at Prom that I ran outside and nearly got picked up by some freak. I might have died or been raped or been kidnapped. DLS: I was so upset and depressed I might have let something happen. Just to make her feel bad.

So yeah, that's my fucked up relationship history. And that's leaving out my best friend that I nearly had sex with in a HS swimming pool.

So yeah, that's pretty much it.